`reason for the teardrops. ♥

Dragon Year :D

2012-01-25T01:07:00.000+08:00

Am a little late, but,

Happy Chinese New Year peeps! :D

Hardcore-ness

2012-01-01T21:19:00.003+08:00

Woooots! OMG at the fireworks! Totally salute their hardcore-ness :O

2012 ;D

2012-01-01T00:22:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! ♥

Had an awesome countdown with the sister, brother, and his girlf down by the Yarra River at the Alexander's Garden with tons of people :D The fireworks were superbly nice! And minutes after the fireworks had ended, there was this tower thingy got caught on fire. BIG FIRE. Creepy. And quite sad for the fire fighters and those maintenance peeps, such great start of the year for them, eyh? :P HAHAHA oh wells.

Anyways, 2011 had given me uncountable ups and downs, and also tons of memorable moments with the awesome bunch of people in my life. 5 years of high school wouldn't be a blast without them around (: Will treasure all the small and big moments of my life ♥ Love all you people to the max! ;D Am gonna keep this simple and short, will update about the new year's eve when I got the time aite? (:

HUGS&KISSES :D ♥

Waterfalls, Streets & Rocks

2011-12-30T22:06:00.012+08:00

SECOND DAY OF THE GREAT OCEAN ROAD TRIP :B :B (28th December)

The morning was kinda chilly, so we decided to warm ourselves up with a superbly nice breakfast to fill all four tummies (: And the breakfast is no other than pancakes with blueberry topping plus butter, and bacon with poached eggs and toast :D Oh yes, the food was totally awesome NOMS ♥ Wished the cousin was here to join us for bacon hunting :/ He loves bacon a lot, like SERIOUSLY A LOT :D

So after the awesome breakfast, we continued our journey around the Great Ocean Road :D Our "first" activity was to visit three waterfalls around this area, since we had already visited one the day before, so why not check out more? HEHS. But due to some reasons, we ended up only to visit two waterfalls, which is the Beauchamp Falls and the Hopetoun Falls.

Beauchamp Falls, which was categorized as Difficult, turned out to be a little disappointment. The walk towards the waterfall was okay-ish, well there's beautiful a scenery, BUT, when we reach the falls, it's like "DAMN, so not worth the freaking walk -.-" because we can't even go near the damned waterfall. Plus the walk back to the car was totally crap cause of the stupid steep slopes and steps they have there. Such disappointment lahh ._. CAN'T BELIEVE WE GOT CORN-ED BY A WATERFALL! ): As for Hopetoun Falls which was categorized as Moderate, the results was some sort of better than what we got from Beauchamp Falls. Even though we can only view the falls from a distance, the trip wasn't really wasted as we got to get off the tracks at some point and onto the rocks at the stream of the waterfall. We could actually go up and close towards the waterfall, but then the brother obviously didn't allow us cause it was kinda dangerous. Damn :/ Oh wells, at least we managed to have fun there :P

After the visits to the falls, our next stops are the Twelve Apostles and the Gibson Steps. We were all kinda freezing there under the hot sun due to the strong wind. So I was like half frozen and half burnt ._. Quite the fml. While on the way to our next stops, we stopped by at the Wait-A-While Street to take some photos (: Such cute names they have for the streets in Melb :B Hahahaha (:

When we reached the Twelve Apostles, the first thing that came to both me and my sister's mind is that this place is familiar. And after a moment of thinking, the sister finally recalled that this place resembles the Grand Canyon due to the big building and the helicopter services. Oh and while we were at both places, we took photos which seemed like forever as we kept spamming with the sister's DSLR even though the camera battery is already dying. And guess what? it seriously died! :O HAHAHAHAHAHA Those times were real epic moments. :B

And finally, we were all tired and decided to head home. Had to wait till we reach back Melb City for dinner as the pizza restaurant we wanted to go in the first place wasn't open ._. So after the long 4hour journey back to the city, we straight headed to Chinatown for dumplings! And unlucky for us, we had to wait for approximately 1hour for a table. Damn. After waiting for so long, heck yeah, time for dinner! Ordered 3 sets of the Xiao Long Bao and 2 plates of dumplings. Such a super filling dinner. NOMS :B After dinner, time to go back home and K.O.

We are a bunch of happy people :D :D

Next update will be about a trip to DFO!

Stay tuned ;D

The Great Ocean Road.

2011-12-30T21:13:00.022+08:00

The trip to Great Ocean Road was fun! :D TEEHEE. With tons of retarded moments with the other 3 people HAHAHAHA. Well we go there by car, since the brother have a car LOL. (: The drive down to the Great Ocean Road is long though, so yeah, throughout the journey there, me and Xiang totally slept in the car most of the time. HMMM (A) Oh wells what to do laa, there was no other better thing to do in the car. I mean, takkan we stare at the scenery outside the car window throughout that few hours drive.. Maybe that's what made us fall asleep, HAHAHA :P

The first stop, Point Danger :

Saw this signboard when we're on the way to our next stop. Reminded me of the awesome camp memories with the 104th scouts (':

The second stop, Lighthouse :

While on the way to the next stop, the brother had to show a sad face due to the minor traffic jam we encountered. I kept myself accompanied by drinking a can of Wong Lo Kat and staring outside the window, while the mind went drifting away to somewhere else. How refreshing lol.

Third stop, Teddy's Lookout :

Fourth stop, Gay Street :

Wheeee, koala on the loose! :O

Fifth stop, Lemonade Creek :

Sixth stop, Lorne :

Finally, we reached our motel at Apollo Bay. After checking out the room and taking a short nap, we're off to grab some dinner nearby :B And woooooots, they have a mini amusement park in the middle of the park! :O It's very the mini though hahaha. Had some seafood platter for dinner and shared a macadamia mango ice cream as dessert (: After that, explored the amusement park and sister went to play the basketball shooting game. The result? She won herself a big teddy bear! :D

Then, we went back to the motel to rest. The three of them ended up watching tv while I stayed in bed to entertain myself with tetris on Gameboy while texting and listening to some music. After that, time to sleep.

Well, that's about it for the first day in Great Ocean Road :D

Madness in Chadstone

2011-12-27T22:22:00.002+08:00

BOXING DAY SALES WAS EPIC :D

Managed to wake up early, all thanks to the sister's phone alarm ._. Got up, took a shower, and readied myself for shopping :B Once we're all set, departed to McD for BREAKFAST :D And omgggggg BACON STRIPS! NOMNOMNOMMMMMS ♥ OH OH OH and there's hot chocolate instead of milo too! :B :B

After breakfast, next destination is CHADSTONE. Why? SHOPPING! :D While on the way there, we were stuck in this small traffic jam due to a car accident in the middle of the road. When we reached Chadstone, omg super hard to find parking! ): But all thanks to the brother who claimed to have prayed to the Parking God, we managed to get a parking slot awhile after we arrived. HAHAHAHA *phewww (: Anyways inside the shopping mall is like total madness O.O It's superbly hectic, FULL OF PEOPLE, like seriously ._. And one of the reasons was that the sales are superbly epic. In one of the shoe shops I went, the lowest price for a pair of flats is $5! Which is RM15. And for heels? $10! LIKE OMG AT THE CHEAP-NESS ._. Shopped around, managed to buy few pairs of jeans, a dress and a skirt (: This is what happens when you shop with Xiang. You enter a shop, look around, pick out a bunch of clothes, go try 'em on, whichever you like, BUY. LOL HAHAHAHA. Spent a lot of money there, hope mum and dad won't get mad when they found out about this ): *prays super hard. So after squeezing around the shopping mall like sardines, we finally decided to leave, and also just in case we end up spending more money ._. HMMMMMM (A)

Spot that smaller sign there? It's so creative and cute! :D

Next stop was Coles. For some grocery shopping, so there will be dinner! (: After buying the groceries, we decided to take some photos for awhile before heading off to Subway for our so-called lunch! (A) :P Subway was.. Different LOL. Okay not really ,I guess. It's just that the choices of bread are different, the vegetable choices are a little different too, and not forgetting that the price is also different! HAHAHA. Oh and not only that, the cookies! It's soft, like, way way way wayyyyyy softer than the ones we have back in M'sia. One bite, and the cookie can break into pieces ._. Superbly fragile, like seriously :O After the delicious meal, it's time to head back home already (: Oh and guess what? Sister bought clothes for her Hulk and a singing Christmas doll. And it's gonna get on my nerves with its annoying voice soon enough ): Brother's already starting to regret for allowing her to buy that toy HAHA.

Went on Facebook, cooked dinner, and prepared breakfast for the next day (which is actually later cause the time now is ermm, 2am? LOL) as we are going to the Great Ocean Road tomorrow. Will be there for 2 days 1 night! So will only blog about it when I get back aite? (:

Am a happy kid :D

Gotta get some sleep, TOODLES! ♥

Touchdown in melb

2011-12-26T03:54:00.012+08:00

Finally reached Melb (:

Last minute packing luggage wasn't that rush, I guess. Didn't waste as much time as I used to take whenever going off overseas for holidays. Not bad eyh (: First time travelling overseas without parents following, was superbly excited. Am actually feeling so happy that the immigration procedures in LCCT wasn't complicated HAHA. Was feeling kinda guilty when two friends (HMM.) wanted to send me off and I didn't really bother to wait for them that I quickly passed through the immigration and entered the departure hall.

* If you're reading this, I'm really sorry. You should some sorta know the reason, and I was really not in the mood to see you. Well, something like that :/ I'm really sorryyyyyy.

While waiting in the departure hall, the sister and I decided to camwhore, to kill time. Oooh-la-la (A)

Anyways, 7 hours plus of plane ride wasn't that fun. Spent Christmas on the plane, well, it was boring. Slept through most of the time, woke up for lunch, then during dinner had to buy a Maggi cup for RM6 ._. How awesome can AirAsia be, like seriously, RM6? Pfft. Oh wells. After that spent the last 2 hours on flight watching Rise Of The Planet Of The Apes using sister's laptop. The lady behind our seats were watching the movie with us through the gap between the seats LOL. And after those ass-torturing hours, the plane finally arrived and landed at the destination :D Exiting the plane, I decided to text the brother to ask his current whereabouts and inform him that we had arrived. But the oh-so-superbly-awesome brother decided to con me, just like how he always do.

"TOUCHDOWN! Where you now? :B"

"Huh? I just woke up"

"Seriouslyyyyy? ._. Anyways we're taking our luggage now HAHA"

"So long.. I'll be there in an hour"

And guess what? Once we passed the customs, retrieved our luggage and exit the area, HOLA, there was the brother and girlfriend standing right in front of the automatic sliding door, giving us huge "HAHA YOU GOT TROLLED" grins on their face. My reaction? "WOI YOU CON ME! ): *smacks brother* ISH!"

After that, called home to inform parents about our arrival. Then, we went to Monga Sweet Cafe in Russell Street (near Chinatown) for desserts! It was already 1am at that moment. But that shop was still open! Till 3am. And the food there? TOTALLY NOMS ♥

When we were done with desserts, we went touring around to look for houses with awesome Christmas decorations. Unfortunately that area had its "Boulevard of Lights" from 10th Dec till 24th Dec. We were "a little" too late ._. Ended up going a huge circle around the dark and quiet housing area. Creepy-ness ._. ._. Before going back to the house, Xiang (the brother's girlf) and I decided to have supper! Went to McD's Drive-Thru to grab a set of Double Cheese (: We were a bunch of hungry people (A) Went back to the house. It's a comfy place, me likey :B

And taa-da, here I am blogging about the arrival to Melb (: I guess I should get

some sleep now, it's Boxing Day today, and there's Boxing Day SALES! :D :D And this means, SHOPPING! ♥

Goodnight people!

Christmas Morning

2011-12-25T09:23:00.000+08:00

First of all, Merry Christmas peeps! ♥ Am gonna fly off to Melb to visit the brother and his girlf soon! WHEEEEEEEEE (: Feeling so excited as this will be the first time travelling with the sister, but without the parents :O

Gotta run, xo's! ♥

Winter Solstice!

2011-12-23T21:02:00.001+08:00

Lover's Bridge.

2011-12-22T00:16:00.007+08:00

Was supposed to attend Seafield Leo's A White Christmas Production, but in the end schedule was mixed up and end up missing out on the event. (I'm sorry mum and dad, I really didn't mean to skip the event that you bot allowed me to attend) Anyways, the initial plan was to head down to Sepang with this bunch of people (KaiWeng, LeonardLye , DylanLim, ShuShian, JunShen, Dom, HweeYing) for a seafood dinner then back to Taylor's to attend the White Christmas Event (Hence, outfit of the night). But in the end due to getting lost on the way and having fun by the erhh.. beach (?), it was obvious that I couldn't fly back to Taylor's in time ._. But in the end had some sort of a great time with the bunch of friends (: They are really nice and quite fun to be with as the girls can totally get high about literally anything easily LOL.

So yeah, we had our seafood dinner at Lover's Bridge Restaurant, not a bad experience having dinner with a group of friends that I'm not that really close with. (: After dinner, we took a walk on the Lover's Bridge located right beside the restaurant. Kinda creepy, but we still had fun :P After that it was time to head home as I actually had a curfew. Unfortunately we got delayed due to a super late night road block somewhere in Puchong (if I'm not mistaken), all thanks to LeonardLye ._. In the end I reached home superbly late, had to some sort of lie to the parents again cause obviously, gotta hide the face I did not attend the White Christmas Event ._. Mum, Dad, I'm seriously sorry, again.

Anyways, photo time :

♥

Toodles!

foolish, mistakes, love.

2011-12-19T18:19:00.004+08:00

Too often we don't realize what we have until it's gone.

Too often we're too stubborn to say. "Sorry, I was wrong."

Too often it seems we hurt the ones closest to our hearts,

And we let the most foolish things tear us apart.

We used pencils when we were small.

But now, we use pens.

Do you know why?

Because mistakes in childhood can be erased,

But not now.

Falling in love is like jumping off a really tall building.

Your brain tells you it's a bad idea,

But your heart?

It tells you, "You can fly ♥"

baking session :B

2011-12-15T20:53:00.002+08:00

Baking session with Tabibi & KW :B

Fun times we had today (: (: Baked blueberry cupcakes and chocolate chip cookies with almond :B SUPER NOMS ♥

Wheeeeee lovin' it ;D

I miss mine, too.

2011-12-11T23:15:00.006+08:00

I miss who I was.

I miss the girl who laughed. I miss the girl who looked at the upside of everything.

I miss the girl who was happy, innocent, and free.

I miss the girl who would look into the mirror and not find every flaw.

I miss the girl who didn't let other's words bother her.

I miss who I was.

- Anonymous.

Sometimes.

2011-12-11T12:37:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I just need to yell and scream at the top of my lungs.

Sometimes I need not to keep it all bottled up.

- Anonymous, SixBillionSecrets.

eccedentesiast.

2011-12-11T12:09:00.000+08:00

"There's so many people who fakes a smile literally everyday that someone actually had to make a word to categorize those people."

- SixBillionSecrets.

Recreate.

2011-12-08T00:09:00.002+08:00

I miss surfing.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! It's midnight, and I'm still up! :D Woots! Okay it's obvious that I'm half bored. t's been a long time since I spammed on Facebook. Good old times :P Made a new email address as the old one was being such a whore for not allowing me to complete the bloody procedures to unblock the account. PFFT. Oh wells, it's time for me to get an official email for future work anyways, that's what the awesome bro tells me (: Hehs.

Anywayssssssss, can't wait to have parties! Gonna organize an advanced christmas celebration! WOOTS :D Hahaha I'm so darn excited :B

Massive.

2011-12-01T22:29:00.001+08:00

The worst crime is faking it.

- Kurt Cobain

Guess I'm a very sinful girl. I commit such crime everyday.

Must

2011-12-01T14:57:00.003+08:00

Seems like I really have to.

final day

2011-11-30T21:21:00.003+08:00

Oh yeahh. The final day where all most of the Form5s are gonna wear this uniform. Well cause there's still Accounts, and also Chinese subjects left. Will definitely miss the school, the people, the memories, the dramas, well, and some of the teachers (:

Ze pink bagpack ♥

Step out.

2011-11-30T17:45:00.002+08:00

Finally. Finished. Biology.

The paper was crap though. Kinda screwed up paper 2, and for the experiment.. So-so I guess. Oh wells SPM is over for me, and it's time to clear up the massive mess in my room ._.

damn.

De-stress

2011-11-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

He's SHO DAMN cute ♥

Last 2.

2011-11-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

Chemistry. And. Biology.

The last two subjects. Last six papers. Last i don't know how many hours. LOL.

Have to dai dai also hardcore study for these two subjects.

And then, freedom (:

But, am totally gonna miss high school. Like seriously :/

Starbucks

2011-11-20T22:00:00.002+08:00

credits to E ♥

Have been going to Starbucks for study session with the whole bunch of friends since SPM started. Not a bad decision made, I supposed. Well at least I can be, hmm, be away from my dear computer for a super long time? :P HAHAHA. (A)

Many things had happened for the past few weeks. Just, too many unexpected events, I can say. Sometimes, I would just stone by myself. And sometimes, I would just act like nothing had ever happened. If I keep going on like this, I guess I would just end up suffering for not being able to understand what both my brain and my heart is trying to tell me. They're currently getting themselves all tangled up, leaving me stuck at.. Okay I don't even know where am I stuck at. OH WELLSSSSSSSSS. Screw 'em for now. Have to keep myself back to the books so that I could at least answer ONE question in each paper for the following 4 subjects :/

Dai liao lahhhh ):

Feeling lost.

2011-11-19T08:00:00.005+08:00

Look into the mirror.

Yes, you're looking at your own reflection.

But at the same time, that person you're looking at,

It's not you.

I'm starting to realize that I am gradually unable to understand myself at all.

It's like, seriously, who am I?

When I look into the mirror, the only thing that came into my mind is,

"Who am I actually staring at?"

Where exactly did I lose myself at? And, when did that even happen?

I'm really starting to freak myself out. Great. Like, totally.

First week off!

2011-11-18T15:00:00.002+08:00

current state due to SPM and also the bloody hot weather.

First week ended. Feel so.. relieved? Hahaha (: But there's all the other tough subjects coming up in the second and third week! ): Addmaths, Physics, Chemistry, Biology ): Omggggggggggg I can totally cry and dai already. Hope I can manage to study everything in time lahhhh ): THERE'S SHO MANY THINGS THAT ARE NEEDED TO BE REMEMBERED ): Especially that freaking Bio ._. Oh wells, gone case laaa me )':

Pfft.

The final stage.

2011-11-13T15:58:00.005+08:00

It it timeeeeeeeeeee! >< Doomsday for us Form5s. Even so, everyone still seem kinda.. relaxed? Not much kiasu-ness compared to the time back then when it was our year sitting for PMR. Most of us can still facebook, tweet, blog, tumblr, go for outings, and still study. HAHA.

For me, I'm a lil stressed up, but at the same time I'm still like "Oh SPM. GG still got alot haven't studyyyyy ): But.. *goes to comp / watch tv / text text text / SLEEP* " How great is that ._. No matter how, I still gotta hit the books. Gotta run!

All the best everyone! ♥

BKT noms :B

2011-11-07T20:25:00.001+08:00

Early in the morning, the family had finally decided to go munch on the food that we had missed dearly. Oh yessssss, it's been a super super long time since I had a meal oh the oh-so-awesome BakKutTeh! :B :B

NOMSSSSSSSSS :B :B

Brunch was super awesome. This had made my day TEEHEE ♥

pickle or cucumber?

2011-11-06T23:24:00.004+08:00

Went all the way to Pavilion for dinner. Heck yeah a week before SPM and I'm still out having fun HOHO :P Below will be a streak of SS photos and what I had for dinner :B

WHEEEEEE ;)

Was hungry that I had to eat bread before the actual dinner cause daddy was shopping for his working shoes >< hehsss. After that, DINNERRRRRRRRRRRR! :D

Omggg I think I can seriously get so damn hyped up when it comes to food HAHA.

During dinner, I ended up arguing with dad over the THIRD photo. Well, the whole argument was just about whether the food's pickle or cucumber. I lost. It's freaking cucumber ._. But it's okay, cucumber is NOMS :P

Had a cup of Jamoca Almond Fudge before leaving Pav :B

Few more shots before getting changed into my p-jays and sleep :D

I love spending days like this. It's fun (:

After SPM plans :D

2011-11-02T16:02:00.001+08:00

So many things I'd wanna do after SPM! But obviously it's impossible to do everything in one shot. :/ Definitely wanna go for outings, organize parties, go on a vacation, and just, ENJOY THE HOLS! :D Totally need to spend time with the friends and family (:

*continues imagining all the awesome things to do after SPM :P

Okay, have to go back dating books :/ Shucks.

Biology.

2011-10-30T10:05:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, attended a Biology Seminar with a few buddies (JiaYin, PeiKai, JenSion, AlvinOng, SamSaw, KokHong, Faris, few other peeps, and also JenSion's friends) (: Overall, the seminar wasn't that bad, in a way quite fun, at least I got to learn some stuffs since I'm superbly bad in this subject :O But the transportation was quite a killer as they didn't prepare enough buses for everyone, where few of the students, ended up have to drive their way to the venue, which is Mahsa University.

So this is the 6 of us (me, JY, KH, Faris, Sam, Alvin) in Sam's car (:

Inside the hall of the university:

Lunch was some rice with vege and stuffs (can't remember lol ._. ) for the students who originally registered for the seminar. Whereas for the students who actually registered for the crash course instead of the seminar, lunch wasn't provided for them and that they had to walk to the KFC nearby for lunch. And since JY, PK, JS and their friends had to go KFC, plus the lunch provided wasn't that satisfying, we all ended up in KFC with most of the students anywayss haha (:

Oh and guess what? The whole 8hour seminar made us sleepy by the end of it. Finally it was time to go home (YAY) :D

:D :D

Totally.

2011-10-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

Really didn't expect that to happen.

Am kinda amused at myself.

Okay, I'm weird ._.

Shall just sign off now ._. ._. ._.

):

2011-10-22T00:39:00.001+08:00

Does it have to be this way? I don't like it at all, honestly.

Imissyou. Iseriouslydo.

Relative's Wedding

2011-10-17T11:24:00.003+08:00

Last night, attended some relative's wedding, ain't gonna elaborate much about it, (since this is actually a superb delayed post) oh wells, just gonna let the photos to do a lil of the talking :D :D

(superb awkward moment with the two cousins on the left ._.)

There's more photos, but since the sister haven't uploaded it (photos in her laptop), couldn't really get it from her unless I do the complicated way, well, which I won't use that method cause it's kinda.. mafan ._. OH WELLSSSSSSS. (:

That's all, I suppose. Toodles!

Coolio beds :D

2011-10-14T17:46:00.004+08:00

Such cool beds! :D I WANTTTTTTTTTTT :P

Especially this last bed, SHO CUTE!

The man and his apple.

2011-10-14T17:44:00.003+08:00

Untitled.

2011-10-14T17:42:00.003+08:00

hmm.

2011-10-12T16:34:00.004+08:00

如果有一天,

我的心真的被击碎,

大脑也坏掉了,

人也已经疯了,

怎么办？

Spectacular.

2011-10-10T11:58:00.005+08:00

Photo credits to the awesome sister :B

It's like, superbly wow O.O

Last night, the sister and mum got so excited that they had to constantly bang my room door just to ask me to watch this amazing view. IT'S SO DAMN COOL! I couldn't believe that I saw it with my own eyes weyh! SHO SHO SHO SHO SHO DAMN COOL!

According to the internet:

A Ring Around The Moon is caused by the refraction of the moonlight (which of course is reflected sunlight) from ice crystals from the upper atmosphere. The shapes of the ice crystals results in focusing of the light into a ring. Since the ice crystals typically have a same shape, namely the hexagonal shape, the Moon Ring is always the same size.

Am I'm like "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH" after that. Hahaha (:

Oh wells, shall get back to studying Biology already. SPM's getting nearer! ):

Am totally so damn doooooomed! ):

Last night, was such a beautiful night.

Toodles!

BITE (a)

2011-10-09T16:19:00.002+08:00

你身边有沒有一个喜欢咬人的女生?
她喜欢在你手臂上使劲的咬一口、然后问你痛不痛
看到你手臂上的牙齿印东一个坑西一个坑
她又会把你的手拿过去亲几口
这是她对你专属的烙印
但始终会有那么一天、你会甩开她的手、说她煩...
喜欢咬人的女生都缺乏安全感、
如果你身边有一个喜欢咬人的女生、请疼她多一点

Ohh realllllyyyyyyyyyyyy? o.o

damn,

2011-10-08T17:44:00.002+08:00

This song reminds me of you :/

not worth it.

2011-10-08T14:10:00.002+08:00

You know what? Screw it.

I'm not really trying to say anything (okay total bullshit), but yeah. I don't care if I am being perasan or anything, but if that was me you were talking about in your blog and your facebook, I would say, "Oh, okayyyy. Now what?" Heck yes. Now what.

I know you tried. You tried so hard to forgive me of everything I had done. Everything that which I had done that made you upset, made you mad, made you feel like "What the fuck is wrong with her? Can't you freaking see that I'm standing here taking it in like nothing had happened?" You tried to hide your pain. You tried to erase all the unhappy moments. But to be frank with everyone around you, you just can't. At all.

I'm sorry to say this, but to tell you the truth, I was a little fed up too. Well little or a lot, I don't know, I don't care. All I know is that I was fed up. Was. Now? I have really no idea about my feelings. Am I suppose to feel hurt? Am I suppose to feel guilty? Who knows. Oh and I'm sure you're wondering why did I feel so.. fed up, right? The thing is, you know you have been keeping a distance away from us for such a long time already right? Okay screw the other girls, I shall just tell you on my very own point of view.

Since I have no idea how many months ago, fine, right after midterm exams or somewhere there when we had this face to face talk thing, you haven't been talking to me. And the only times when you only bother talking to me is during tuition. Well, I obviously will feel hurt, but I know I can't do anything much because literally everything that happened between us was mostly my fault. So I just let it be, take it like I had never known you, and go through that 5hours of tuition classes alone. I'm not trying to make you feel sympathy or what, alright? You were still mad at me, you still couldn't forgive about everything, so yeah, what can I do, right? Obviously leave you with all your other friends. I knew that I couldn't and shouldn't blend in anyways. But even so, there are still times when you talk to me, and by talking you and I both know what I'm referring to, right? If you don't know, I can still tell you anyways. If you even realize, our conversation is either by looking at each other for a few seconds, or with you asking me "Are you okay?" That's it. And you know what? The reason that I get fed up is that every time after you stop talking to me for a super duper long time and when I start to think that I should just get out of your life cause all I've been giving is nothing but pain in your life, you start to talk to me, and trying to show that you still care. And the next thing I know, you stopped talking and here we go again. And this kept me hanging, and no offence, I really felt like dying okay. It totally sucked and I was really really fed up. It's like, what the heck do you want? Talk? Or leave me alone? Or you want this friendship back? It gives me a huge headache before I could even think about it.

Not only that, whenever you talk to me, or give me a smile, do you know how I feel? I feel like a loner being sympathized by a passer-by. And why is that? It seems like whenever you talk to me, it gave me the feeling that you felt guilty for not talking to me, that's why you should at least make a single sentenced conversation with me so that things won't look so bad at all. And when you show me a smile, its like saying "I don't know how to end this dumb and worthless conversation, oh, right, what about ending it with a smile? Then I can just turn back to the front and either listen to what teacher's teaching or continue talking to my friends. Oh heck yeah I'm so smart." And again, totally no offence, you really looked as if you were forced or paid with billions just to talk to me.

But you know what? I don't think this whole thing is worth it already. To me, I think that things would still be awkward between us even if we are working our way back to how we used to. From where we are standing now, I don't think we could even move forward at all. Well, totally no offense. It's not your fault anyways. Even if both of us had missed the past a lot, with our current conditions, will it even help the future much? There are many other things that can make you happy anyways. It's 999% proven that your life is so much better without me being in it, isn't it? (: Your life had changed a lot, and its real better than last time. I would love to congratulate you for that, because you deserved a better life than anyone of us around here, I suppose. (:

Anyways, it's already taken too long for us that things had turn out this way. You've changed, and I've changed, too. To tell you the truth, when you asked me, "When we graduate high school and enter college and I stopped talking to all of you people, what will you do?" I already have a feeling that you wanted to give up on everything. And from that day onward, I had been thinking, is it worth it if we become good friends again? If we stayed at hi-bye friends, maybe things would be better for us, won't it? I have been a huge pain in your ass. I should be the one to volunteer to walk out of your life before it becomes way more miserable. Because I know, I don't deserve to be more than your hi-bye friends in your life, at all. I know that.

Screw the whole thing at the top for a moment, and let me ask you a question (or maybe more). It is still very hard for you to move out from the past, right? And do you still value this friendship and have faith that we could be more than just hi-bye friends? I hope you could answer me honestly. Because if you too, don't think that its worth it to fix things, I would just say, let it all go. I'm not a worthy friend to have. Oh and don't worry, you don't have to answer me, in fact you don't have to answer at all. You have way more awesome friends than me anyways, so yeah. I guess I should just walk away. All the best in SPM, and in the future too, aite? Chase your dreams and pursue your interests well, and you'll be successful (: Take care too, alright? Don't focus too much on other people until you totally forgotten about taking care of yourself. Alas, thank you for being there for me for 4years even though there were tons of time I pushed you aside and leave scars in your heart, I appreciate everything, and I know it's still useless, but, I'm sorry for all the pain I had caused. Goodbye, friend. (':

SHO CUTE ♥

2011-10-06T12:31:00.000+08:00

HAHAA OMG GD! :B :B

Which?

2011-10-06T12:20:00.000+08:00

Not easy at all.

2011-10-04T12:19:00.000+08:00

Creating a new start ain't easy for me either.

I'm sorry.

why

2011-10-02T12:58:00.002+08:00

Wasn't it me who made the decision?

Wasn't it me who wanted to end it?

So why?

Why am I still crying so hard?

Didn't I use to be so damn heartless?

But why are there still tears?

Why is the pain still there?

Why?

This is how we roll.

2011-10-01T01:04:00.001+08:00

Time seriously flies, and now's already October. Great. So the great. Closer to doomsday :/

Anyways screw those for a day, I spent the last day of September without studying (a) Well I do plan on studying, BUT, ended up failing hahaha :P Oh wells. Early in the morning went for dental appointment, am loving my teeth more now :B :B TEEHEE. Oh and instead on spending my time dating History, I dated blueberry cupcakes instead ♥ Still have to improve on those though, am gonna bake them again after SPM (heck yeahhh) :D After baking, dinner at 9plus, then movie! Since I have been missing out on literally every movie this year, I don't think it'll be a crime to watch another movie (even though I watched one on the previous night) :P Anyways, watch Fast5 with dad and bro, like finally, I'm watching this movie! Felt great after the movie :D :D

Oh wells, am I suppose to go to bed now..?

Okay maybe I should. Goodnight world! (:

Hop.

2011-09-30T02:10:00.002+08:00

Late night movie with a touch of McD with the beloved brother. NOMS ♥

No interruption please.

2011-09-29T00:16:00.000+08:00

i just couldn't.

2011-09-28T00:56:00.004+08:00

I really can't take another step forward.

I'm really really sorry.

I'm sorry that I decided to back out.

I'm sorry that I broke all of the promises we made.

I'm sorry for giving you hopes that could not be fulfilled.

I'm sorry for creating a future and end up demolishing it.

I'm sorry for giving up.

I'm sorry for being the one to walk away from you.

I hope this doesn't happen. I still value our friendship, a lot.

just, one day.

2011-09-27T01:19:00.003+08:00

Please put this on, even though it hurts a lot.

For now, I'm sure you wouldn't understand why I made this decision.

But just, one day. One, very fine day, you'll realize why.

Please don't cry already. It really kills me whenever I hear you crying through the phone.

But I really can't go back.

pain < hate

2011-09-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

How I wish.

Honestly.

2011-09-25T12:10:00.000+08:00

mad.

2011-09-24T00:22:00.000+08:00

It is easier.

2011-09-23T23:24:00.001+08:00

what if?

2011-09-21T23:56:00.002+08:00

Too many "what-if's".

How am I gonna answer each and every single one of it?

I can't even handle anything on my own now.

Feeling so.. useless.

Andrew's 17th.

2011-09-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

YOUCHAOOOOO! HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY (:

HAHAHAH sorry for the failed surprise, hoped you still liked it though (: (:

You know we Ace Bob the Cats love you loads :B :B

:D :D :D

Brains, NOM.

2011-09-20T17:17:00.000+08:00

Okay if I'm not gonna start being a kiasu and study like crap, I'd definitely turn into that and eat up all of your brains.

So I will be the smarter one (a)

too much

2011-09-17T22:57:00.001+08:00

How long more can I handle every single thing?

I'm gonna go crazy, soon.

Stickyyy ♥

2011-09-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

*hugs. ♥

I'm really sorry,

2011-09-13T21:57:00.001+08:00

for being useless.

ACE Farewell

2011-08-29T16:10:00.004+08:00

The Wednesday Bob The Cats ♥

Ace Farewell. It's been 12 years since I joined Ace. Yeahh, THAT long. And as the only one who had join this awesome place when she's still a kindie girl, the only memory I had during my first year in Teacher Anne's house is that I was given a picture of an egg to color. Epic much? Ace Ed-Venture had given me so much memories, such as all of those fun and goofy moments in class, story telling competitions, group and solo presentations, factual writings, 1 hour essays, spellings! (and how this Wednesday class is able to use up more than half an hour just to do spelling HAHA), show and tell, games, FINANCIAL EDUCATION, The Belgariad Series by David Eddings, movies, STOMP, miming, writing poems, descriptive writings, many many more, and not forgetting, CLASS PARTY! (: This place is totally like a second home with so many awesome things to do in that mere 2 hours of class every week. And by being in the class with the most awesome classmates and teachers, the money and time spent there are definitely worth it :D

And back to the original topic of this post, Ace Ed-Venture had organized a huge farewell for all Secondary 5 students :D :D And it is the first year where the farewell is held outdoors! Previously it had been organized in halls, just like those formal dinner events kind of farewell. So heck yeah, this year's farewell was the bomb! Ice breaking, Station games, Lunch, Station games, Wash up, Barbecue dinner, Appreciation ceremony, Speech, Photos, and lastly, Goodbye.

The overly excited bunch of people! :D

"WEDNESDAY 8-10!!!!!"

Wednesday 8-10, Group 1.

Body-gloved by Jen Sion. LOL.

For station games, my group's station is that for each and every group that comes to our station, they are required to pick out a photo of a gymnastic pose randomly, and then one of them would have to pose accordingly. Marks will then be given by the judges. Modification to make the pose look better can be made to get extra points. Then, the person who struck the pose would need to remove a sweet which is mixed together with tons of flour using only his or her mouth. Well the game seemed retarded, BUT I don't care about it much, as long as we all know how to have fun and make the whole day memorable (:

Lunch break! FOOOOOD! :D

Second session of the station game :D

♥

Wash up was.. crazy. Like totally. Because there were water games and it rained during the second session of the station game, everyone are fighting for the bathroom like spartans! Everywhere is like, super crammed and hectic. In the end, me and the few girls, altogether 5 of us, decided to take shower together LOL. And yes we managed to cram ourselves inside the not-so-big toilet. Just nice. After that, berpakat with the fellow scouts to wear our Caution tee (: Hoho we are highlyy flammable, and we can increase the efficiency of preparing the food which are needed to be barbecued :P :P HAHAHAHAA. Anyways dinner was super NOMS. ♥ After that, appreciation ceremony. Gifts are given to students who had join ACE for at least 6 years, if I'm not mistaken. Then prizes were also given to the groups who scored top three in the station game. Many awesome things were given out, like seriouslyyyyyyyy. Portable mini speakers, portable cylindrical speakers, sling bags, some coolio crystal color plant thingy, there's still a few more things, urghh can't remember. I received a black leather sling bag as a gift for being with ACE for 12 years. Oh my I feel sho damn honored. (A) After the ceremony, it was time to pack up. JiaWen, Carmen, HuiYi, YouChao and I were the last few to enter the bus because we were packing our things slowly, without realizing that our bus people had already rushed off to the bus as our bus is the first bus in line. Everyone in the bus were freaked out cause they thought that we had gone missing ._. Woops.

This farewell have definitely given me many fun memories. Am so gonna miss ACE )':

tuned into,

2011-08-28T00:42:00.002+08:00

I Won't Give Up - Jana Kramer

Just A Kiss - Lady Antebellum

I Won't Let Go - Rascal Flatts

No Promises - Shayne Ward

Making Memories Of Us - Keith Urban

That Should Be me ft. Rascal Flatts - Justin Bieber

天天夜夜 - F.I.R.

Goodnight, love.

Ipoh break.

2011-08-27T13:01:00.001+08:00

I miss.

Everything. I miss it all. I just want you back here.

can't.

2011-08-27T11:38:00.004+08:00

iloveyoujusttoomuch, ican'twalkaway.

pleasecomeback, ireallydon'twantyoutoleave.

footwearrrrr :B

2011-08-17T12:26:00.001+08:00

aaaaaaaah *melts :B :B :B :B :B

bullied.

2011-08-15T22:04:00.002+08:00

I don't care if you did it or not. I just hate you for being that type of guy.

You are a total jackass, bitch.

Need tips? teehee!

2011-08-12T18:49:00.005+08:00

THE BRO TIPS :P

ETIQUETTE FOR GENTLEMEN :B

*CLICK IF YOU REQUIRE LESSONS LOL :P

BRACKET A (A)

chibird

2011-08-12T18:46:00.001+08:00

GO VISIT! Its super duper cuteeeee :B

http://chibird.tumblr.com

horoscopes.

2011-08-11T01:18:00.003+08:00

Oh my, its already 1am and I'm still awake (a) Hahaha the effect of taking hold of sister's lappie and facebook messaging baby boy while talking over horoscopes :P

And guess what? Am having Biology paper 3 later ._. Hopefully I can answer the questions , super duper hate paper 3 ):

Oh wells, screw Biology for a moment, and back to horoscope reading :P

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. This is fun (:

cherries.

2011-08-10T00:45:00.001+08:00

damn, I feel like eating 'em.

roar, cravings (:

movie + karaoke

2011-08-07T00:47:00.004+08:00

I miss having the movie marathon plus karaoke session during December 2010 :/

Another time this year end? (: (:

Well, with MANY MORE fun and awesome people! *winks

RIP, beloved.

2011-08-05T23:28:00.003+08:00

I fuh-reaking miss you )':

Sorry for not being strong enough to be by your side during your last moments,

really, really sorry.

Rearranged.

2011-08-04T23:40:00.002+08:00

Urghhh. Hate it whenever I have to rearrange my tuition schedule for more than one time. Super super duper annoyinggggggggg ):

Oh screw it, guess what?

♥

Big bro's 18th

2011-08-01T23:41:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG BRO (:

zomy you look fat in that photo (A)

Anyways, YOU'RE ANOTHER YEAR OLDER (:

Thanks for being there for me whenever you can, I know I've been a very bad sister. But that doesn't mean you're THAT good either >:)

HAHAHAHAHA

Oh wells hope you enjoyed your second last hour of your birthday killing zombies and playing sports such at basketball, ping pong and bowling at my crib. It was fun to have you around, and also that new friend, Hwong Yi or sth? hahaaa :P

2010's birthday card (:

Lastly, love you loads big fat bro! XOXO

STOMP

2011-07-31T22:41:00.002+08:00

HOYEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

STOMP IS COMING TO M'SIAA :D :D :D :D :D

omfg awesome-ness!

Oh heck yeah I can't wait! I seriously wanna go watch their live performance, LIKE SERIOUSLY :D woots! Good thing its on the 29th Nov till 4th Dec, which means its after SPM! WOOTS. But then not sure whether parents will let me go or not cause its like, RM165 if I'm not mistaken ._. pft kinda spoiler, but whatever, I will still look forward to it (: Wheeeeeeeeeeee :B

The 3 month horror

2011-07-30T17:22:00.002+08:00

Time to be a geek, for 3 months.

The horror. Its like, the beginning of the end of the world. LOL. I mean, most of us are not even fully prepared for the first trials. Total killer ): Prays hard that the papers ain't gonna turn out super hard >< Gosh I hate the feeling of have to abandon everything to study, but I just can't pull myself away from the computer! ): Someone stab me please. Well one good thing for me is that handphone was already confiscated. Its not really a bad thing though, just that the bloody disadvantages are that no late night phone calls and early morning calls from babyboy :/ Miss his voice through the phone :/

Kay screw it already, have to get my butt off the chair to study!

Zomy wish me luck, totally need it

Will you stay?

2011-07-26T23:42:00.001+08:00

I'm really afraid that you might leave me one day.

Still a baby.

2011-07-26T20:24:00.003+08:00

I miss being such a small baby. And I still can't believe that I use to have bangs. Hahaha (A) Oh and no way I'mma cut bangs at this age, totally not suitable for me right now (: Oh wells, even though I miss those times when I was still super young and innocent, I guess now I'm still almost the same. HAHAHAH (A) (A) Okay maybe not to say super young and innocent, its more like.. still living my life so babyish. I do still merajuk like a baby, break down and cry easily like a baby, laugh like there's nothing wrong just like a small happy-go-lucky child (well, at times). So, there;s not much difference.. Right? :P

Wheeee baby fats, I'm sho damn kiute when I was young. TEEHEE (a)

012 freak.

2011-07-18T17:23:00.002+08:00

Omg omg omg omg omggggggggg!

Some weird freaky myanmar guy is using my bloody old handphone number!

Wtffffffffffffffffffffffffffff, mummy haven't even go cancel the number! FREAKY ):

FISHHHHH ._.

Wait, maybe cause my number expired or something..

Or did he just randomly renew a handphone number?

Ohhhh, the fml-ness ._.

F4 meeting :B

2011-07-16T13:50:00.002+08:00

Pretty much sums up the activities for the day? (A)

Okay fine, first off marching practices, then photoshoot! WOOTS. Haha after that was games organized by the Form4 scouts. Oh my, time flies super fast. Reminds me of last year's Form4 meeting (: Miss those moments.

Oh and this also reminded me, we still haven't get to teach this two new songs! Ahh nasiblahh, you guys gotta wait till next year, or maybe never (A)

TEEHEE

6 months. ♥

2011-07-13T22:25:00.005+08:00

6 months. That's a really long time for us, eyh? (: So many ups and downs, so many emotional moments, so many tiny arguments. Yet we're still holding on together. The things that I wish to say to you, it's already written in that super cute, pink, adorable speech bubble card ♥

Oh and look, it's not only I who love you. There are so many other people who feels the same way too! HAHAHAHA :P

After the "Iloveyou"s, time for SS session! LOL

teehee! :D

5Budians photoshoot.

2011-07-05T19:26:00.004+08:00

E and Jun ♥

Class jersey photoshoot for the yearbook (:

It was fun, seriously. Well, but I got my left eye injured during the photoshoot hahaha. Got whacked accidentally by E and end up having internal bleeding. The whole thing was freaky, both of us got freaked out like MAD. Luckily there was Mr. Kang to drive us out to the USJ2 clinic for a check up. And luckily for me it wasn't a serious injury, but if it was a little more accurate, I would have gotten my cornea injured and I will end up going blind ._. Scaryyyyy. Got some medicines and also an eye drop that will last me around a week to get the blood clot at my eye to disperse, and it costs RM40. Likewhatthehecksoexpensive! ): After the check up, Mr. Kang asked us to join him and another two teachers for a yumcha session before going back to school. That session was definitely a ridiculous one with all the funny and retarded jokes from the teachers :P Oh and due to this injury, both of us had to skip the class photo, and most of the photo session :/ The girls were quite mad at us because we just ran off the field and went out to the clinic without telling them. Ahh wells, not that I care much, actually (a)

Well at least I didn't miss out on the last group photo for the day :P

West Side Story.

2011-07-03T15:25:00.004+08:00

July 2nd 2011.

West Side Story, SMK Seafield's Choir Production.

Am quite lazy to go through the details, overall it wasn't bad, I did enjoy myself (:

Good job to Seafield Choir :D

Okayyy, chop chop, photos!

Galan the pink :D

Jayh :D :D

Mr. Tham :D

Met up with the babes who transferred to Sirius Scholar :D

WeiQin & Justin daddy :D

Group photo! :D

xoxo ♥

That's all for today's post (A) TOODLES

Of Risotto & Mocktails

2011-06-30T20:26:00.011+08:00

Attended a culinary workshop organized by the school (: How awesome is that? :D Had a great experience there and enjoyed myself together with the bunch of jakun friends (:

Ain't gonna go into much details, so scroll down, view the photos and some captions here and there then try to get the full picture of the whole workshop aite? Teehee!

When we first arrived at our destination :

After entering the building :

They had this shown at the mini tv screen outside the lift!

We are so honored hahaha :B

In the kitchen classroom to watch how risotto is prepared :

Risotto! Awesome foooooooood. NOMS.

At the oenology lab for some mocktail lessons :

Presenting you Maverick Chong, your future bartender (:

At the listening hall for a more formal introduction about the university :

Small tour around the university :

This is Richmond, our group's "tour guide".

Oh we were separated into two groups fyi (a)

Celebrities whom visited before.

Hotel management's house keeping suite :

University cafe :

Upper East Side Deli :

Culinary studio :

Student projects. Damn wow-ish.

Coffee and tea academy :

Samplings On The Fourteen, a restaurant for student chefs to gain experiences :

And finally,

LUNCH! :B :B :B

Appreciation certificate with our group photo (:

After attending this workshop, I had started to think of which course should I take in the future. I still can't figure out what do I really want to do, which course is my real interest and that I would wanna live the rest of my life doing that job. Definitely nothing to do with science subjects, I suppose. Designing arts? Not really good at it. Events management, maybe? Or hospitality and hotel management? Or maybe business? Rawr am so damn frustrated :/

Oh wells, that's all for today. Toodles!

Not forgetting, photo credits to WongChiChing & LeeXinEr! :D

Annnnnnnnnnnd, he's back :D

2011-06-28T23:39:00.001+08:00

Ze awesome brother finally came home from Aussie with his girlf!

ZOMG miss them loadsssssssss (:

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

New fiscal year

2011-06-20T20:37:00.002+08:00

Finally stepped down, not sure to feel happy or sad. Well, cause its like quite a tiring thing when you have to cope your activities along with your studies :/ so yeah. But I'm super duper sure that I'll be missing everyone whom I've worked together with throughout my fiscal year as a Secretary & Public Relations Director. Will never forget the awesome memories we had (':

Anyways, let me introduce the incoming board of directors for fiscal year 2011/2012 (:

President : Leo Kiew Yee Pei
1st Vice President : Leo Chan Lik Wei
2nd Vice President : Leo Lim Han Jin
Secretary : Leo Tan Ke Jia
Treasurer : Leo Michelle Tong Siew Yi
School Service Director : Leo Lee Vincent
Asst. School Service Director : Leo Darien Eng Yin Xin
Social & Fundraising Director : Leo James Tan Soon Tat
Asst. Social & Fundraising Director : Leo Choo Jun Hui
Public Relation Director : Leo Lee Wee Jui
Asst. Public Relation Director : Leo Toh Wei Jun
Health & Enviroment Director : Leo Ho Chuan Jian
Asst. Health & Enviroment Director : Leo Winnie Choo
Membership Director : Leo Ling Xi Gene
Asst. Memebership Director : Leo Lee Hui Min
IT Director : Leo Ngui Tze Ken
Asst. IT Director : Leo Jaslyn Chong

Congratulations to the newly elected board :D

You guys better show every other Leos what you guys are capable of doing aite? I'm sure there are many things you all can do to serve the community. RAWR ♥

Leo Photoshoot

2011-06-16T18:28:00.003+08:00

♥

Cause we Seafield Leos are awesome just like that :D

ATM's 17th

2011-06-11T23:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATM (:

Stop being so super GL or I'm seriously not gonna return you your money kay? (A)

IDK laa.

2011-06-04T18:08:00.000+08:00

I feel like a world class idiot, wow.

But, its okay, I guess I could understand.

Its just, what now?

dance dance!

2011-06-02T17:45:00.000+08:00

2011 CFN PREPS had begun! woots (:

It's been a superbly long time since I danced, I think ._. Oh wait that was around one month ago, but oh wells (A) Anyways am excited for the full dance routine yo! Wheeeeeee :D

May this last year's preps be one of the best things that happened in 2011 (:

Be My Superman

2011-06-01T18:09:00.000+08:00

When I'm in trouble,

When I'm having unstable emotions,

When I'm about to explode,

When I'm feeling lost,

When I'm about to cry my heart out,

When I'm in a mood swing,

Will you be there?

for the first time.

2011-05-29T16:17:00.004+08:00

let's kill time (:

And yes, for the first time, I'm stuck at home instead of attending either one of the two major events - 104th Outdoor Camp & 38th MD Leo Forum! ): This feeling sucks laa, having most of your friends out enjoying themselves when you're literally the one staying at home to rot. Well I'm sure you might be wondering why am I here, at home. Reason for not attending Forum was because the price was superbly expensive. Oh come on, every year the price is 280 and this year its 350, HOW TO GO LAH NO MONEY ): Then reason for not able to go Outdoor is because it was kinda late for me to register and that I have to make a "tiny" sacrifice to skip this two events for Campfire Night. Weird reasons, you might think, but whatever laa decision was already made, and yeah, here's the result ._.

I miss everyone, especially sampatest ):

roar.

woops (A)

2011-05-27T14:24:00.003+08:00

I just realize that I broke my promise. WOOPSIE (A)

Time to update the poor blog now (:

babydonuts.

2011-05-22T23:05:00.002+08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeee sho cuteeee! :B :B :B :B

thankyouuuuuuu, sampatest!

TEEHEE ♥

Midterms.

2011-05-05T21:15:00.001+08:00

OMGeeeeee.

Its exam seasons, again.

Oh wells, all the best everyone, we all know how much we need those lucks.

Important to be important?

2011-05-01T15:35:00.007+08:00

Dear x,

There's been so damn many things going on and about in my life, and as you can see, I have been going through quite a lot this year. First, I would like to say, I'm sorry. For treating you differently, with that very same hot and cold attitude. As you can see, I have not been controlling my attitude nicely, which I can rephrase that as, I'm admitting that I have an attitude problem. To kinda be frank, I don't really know what's going on in my mind right now. All I know is that, I have been screwing up literally everything in my life, which includes friendships, relationship, studies, co-curriculum, and also family matters. I am going through a lot, and the reason that I have not been telling you anything is because you seem to have many things on your mind, too. I just didn't want to increase the burden even though I know that you won't like my actions of keeping so many things behind your back. And I was right, you never liked any of it.

I know, I have also been very selfish towards you. We haven't been communicating well in school, tuition, text messages, and even msn. I'm not trying to say that you're annoying. You're not annoying, its just.. everyone needs some space of their own. Okay that was plain bullshit, I'm sure you wouldn't even want to believe that. Since you should know that I seriously sucked in expressing myself during face to face talks, I guess I'll just have to tell you through the blogging central. You seemed to be a little too focused on me. First, I'm not trying to be perasan or something, but its from my point of view. Its like, whatever I do, whatever that happened, I actually seem to need to inform you right away, as you are my best friend. But I don't think this is how things should work. If you really say that you know me well, you should know that I don't like people who sticks to me too much. Okay I'm not saying that you're like that, but I'm trying to prevent you from being someone like that. Don't just put all the attention to only one person, show your care towards others, too. I know you do care for others, but try to balance off the caring-ness to everyone. Don't push 50 percent of that feeling of wanting to care for someone onto me, where everyone else gets to share the other 50 percent equally, please. It doesn't only make me feel kinda uneasy, I do feel pressured too. I know this reason is very dumb, and some sorta unacceptable to some people, but yeah, I hope you can understand.

All I can say now is, I'm really sorry for being such a bitch in your life when what you're trying to do is just show that you care for me and want to be the one there for me at all times. I have my reasons for being the bitch, and I hope you can understand. I don't ask for your forgiveness as I doubt you'll let everything through and forget it even if its totally settled.

One more thing, I hope you won't get mad or upset or disappointed at me after reading this full post. Well, I actually don't have the rights to control your feelings, so.. I'll just have to be prepared for what's going to happen next.

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I know I have apologized, but I just can't resist myself from telling you something, what I think that is kinda, dumb.

From what had happened yesterday, and by plain judging on my actions and making assumptions saying that he's more important to me than you, I can really salute you, really. Let me ask you, is being the most important person in my life a very important thing for you? I mean, not much offence, but so what if he's more important? Does it mean that you're not important to me? Have I gone around telling people, "Hey guess what? I love this guy, and now since he's such an important person in my life, I guess my best friend means nothing to me." Have I done that? Tell me to my face.

Let me change the situation. Let's take it that I currently have no.. boyfriend, or some guy which I love. And if you really want to be the most important person in my life, does it mean that you have to be at the top of my "Most Important People In My Life" list? So.. My family have to be at second place?

Okay, I know this part of the post is super bitchy and might be offensive to you, but, seriously. Does this really matter a lot? As in needing to be that someone which is more important than every other people in my life? Can't it just be that, you're important to me, and he's also important to me, that's it. Is being at the first place means something big? I don't really get it.

I understand your situation (or maybe not), and I can say, you don't really have to apologize for this. Cause don't worry, I don't think that I'll be expecting one from you. I just want you to know. That's all.

Hope things will turn out to be better, aite?

Oh, before I forget, please stop saying sorry to me already. Have you forgotten what I had told you about that incident which had occur during the end of my Form1 life? By having you to apologize just to plainly trying to make me happy? It doesn't work. Our friendship will just die if you keep doing that. Don't ever think that being the one to suffer or making dumb sacrifices show that you're someone's best friend. Let me tell you, best friends don't do things that way. And, you're not supposed to be the one telling me "You don't have to feel bad". The method you're using to save this friendship, I'm really sorry to tell you this, but its not right. AND, you don't have to apologize for your mistake, I know you have been doing your best to save this friendship while I have been breaking it in the same time. I am the one to be saying "I'm sorry".

So.. yeah,

I'm really sorry.

fuh-reaking nervous

2011-04-23T08:32:00.000+08:00

ITS TOMORROW!

I'm so so so so damn scared >< Hope everything will turn out right, cause I don't wanna die halfway throughout the event itself LOL *touchwood.

Wish me luck people! (:

Not only that, ALL THE BEST TO MY BELOVED AWESOME BOD AITE ♥

Smin

2011-04-10T18:33:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE ♥

Dear babe,

Here I am, wishing you a super belated birthday wish. This year we haven't been hanging out much, and I hope our friendship still haven't change (: There's so much to say, but I just can't think of words to put it down :/ Oh wells, once more i wish you all the best in life, keep smiling and enjoy this last year of high school to the fullest aite :D LOVE YOU LOADS!

Time is Running Out

2011-04-09T21:52:00.001+08:00

April. A super duper busy and hectic month. Its filled with all the retarded, funny, bullshitting moments where one can be first smiling, then being so damn pissed off and ended up breaking down in tears. This month had just started about a week, and at times, I had really feel like giving up everything.

1. Leo Fellowship Night.

Roar? With so many things going on and about, literally running up and down to face those teachers, searching for PAs and sponsors, dialing numbers and picking up phone calls, not forgetting about those non-stop incoming text. Its getting so frustrating! It feels as if I'm officially a business woman, just like what my mum quoted ._. But putting those aside, I still have to handle all those stress by myself. Pfft.

2. Camp Perdana.

CAMP! I hope this wouldn't be the last camp I'd be able to join. There's still Forum and outdoor camp! But I only get to choose one though, cause clash :/ Okay back to Perdana. I still haven't meet up with my group members yet ): CAN'T WAIT :D OH OH and as usual, Scouts had the x3 amount of members participating in this camp, again :D :D So, its like in every group, we get to have 4-5 of our own units together! Its so awesome that you won't feel lost :D Oh I still feel bad for the others though. Hope everyone gets to be friends by end of the camp! (: Oh and one more thing, I'M IN THE SAME GROUP AS JIAYIN! AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D

3. Sports Day.

Everyone's not being so spirited as last year ): I wish to join the drill team, but I'm superbly busy with my upcoming event. SO sorry to the Form5s! The number of Form5s this year who plans to join the team are countable, with one hand I think, and I hope not. Well exclude the councils. If possible, I wanna join the team laaaaaaah! :/ Hope this year, everyone can be damn semangat, damn committed and all as usual, then we can go out to the tracks and show our skills to win back that trophy once again! (:

ALALALALA. Am literally done with this. :D CIAOS

Easy A

2011-04-09T18:21:00.004+08:00

Am currently quite lazy to talk about the movie and stuffs,

but oh wells, overall its not a bad movie (: (: